Monday October 20th 2008, My bestfriend was killed in a car acident. He was like a brother to me. he was the brother i wish i couldve had. You don't know what you have untill its gone. John loved to be the life at a party, he was story teller, the jokester. He was someone you went to when you had a problem and didnt know how to handle it. He always knew what to say and how to help fix it. He was also someone who lived their life to the fullest or tired too and did a awesome job of doing that.

He was someone who you either liked or didnt like, and even if you didnt like him, he could always make you smile. I had 3 periods with him this year. Now i have to look at an empty seat every day, and i cant think " oh well hes gonna be in tomorrow" no i cant think that because he is not. i wish he would just knock on my front door right now and be like SUPRISE!!!!!!!!!!! but i know that is not going to happen. None of us are okay. today at school was one of the hardest days of my life. I had to tell so many ppl what happen to john, the crying was just to much people didnt know what was going the school didnt even know what happened untill a bunch of us went into the guidence office crying our heads off. They split us up to get information, i tried to explain stuff i just couldnt do it.

The phone call i got last nite is something NO ONE should get. Everyone thought it was a made up story, so i acually tried to see if the story that was going around was true/false, I even called his phone I called it twice and it just rang the 3rd time i did it Someone turned his phone off. So i called someone to get johns mothers phone number, and i couldnt dial it. i couldnt dare ask someones mother is their son alive, and to hear the answer be no. is just something so mind blowing. I just couldnt do it, all i got was to write her number down, but i told my friend on the phone i couldnt do it, so he told me that he would do it instead of me.

He called me back in shock, and his firsts words were " uh...Sierra. John died he didnt make it." He said that he talked to johns step dad and that he confirmed that john died. Thats where i fuckin lost it. I ran upstairs screaming and yelling off the top of my lungs.

I slept over my bestfriend tori's house and our goooood friend connor joined us as well. I havent slept at all i havent eatin anything either still. This is gonna be one hell of a long week/month/year. None of us saw this coming. It was just any ordanary day. Ironic thing is, the last thing my english teacher said to me that day was to Live life to the fullest because you never know when your time is up. I think this is a wake up call for everyone. Is to enjoy life as you can. and to also be safe and wear your SEATBELTS!

This still hasnt processed through my head or for the rest of us that have to go through this. the halls and our classrooms will so quiet without him, It just wont be the same. I dont know what to do with myself. But i seriously do think we should try to think and talk about all the good awesome fun memories we had with him and of him.

One of johns favorite quotes was " Live the life you love, Love the life you live" and it is also my favorite quote too.

John I miss you so much, i will never be the same without you none of us will. We love you, I love you. your family is in our prayers. <3<3<3<3

Love, Sierra.